DO YOU EVER have something you really want to say and do not know how to verbalise? A realisation that has been creeping through, a lesson you've been learning, a sudden revelation?
But it does not seem to fit into words. You end up saying 'it's sort of like...', or 'you know when...' When you've finished speaking you feel you've done it an injustice, or said something entirely different.
It's just not easy to explain.
Sometimes time is the answer - gradually the words grow to fit, or the thoughts clarify themselves to an extent that you can find a vocabulary for them.
As a writer, perhaps this perplexes me more than it would someone else. As someone who feels things deeply, perhaps I am inexplicable by nature!
Sometimes I would like to hand my feelings to someone, so they could borrow them for a moment. So they could catch the sense of what I'm saying, grasp the importance of what I'm learning. So they could understand my 'wow' moments without me having to constantly ask if they know what I'm getting at.
Looks like I'm having one right now.
Know what I mean?